the list.

warning. as time goes on this list will continually grow, without a doubt. my apologies.

in no particular order, things i feel the need to experience in my life.

1. italy.
2. greece.
3. australia.
4. zimbabwe, africa.
5. jerusalem.
6. tonga.
7. france.
8. alcatraz, ca.
9. washington state.
10. vermont.
11. live in a new york penthouse for at least a day.
12. live on a south-east plantation for a day. like in the notebook.
13. design my dream house. and everything in it. and then have it built.
14. visit old eauropean castles.
15. be on the cover for a magazine.
16. become unreal at photography.
17. learn to sew anything.
18. read as many books as krista saltmarsh and mitch beck.
19. become an accomplished lady. get some credentials.
20. learn to be ok with ME 100%.
21. become a very organized, motivated person.
22. have an incredible, huge backyard/garden that i can take all the credit for. get really good at landscaping and gardening.
23. have a cabin.
24. have a really, really pretty fireplace.
25. fly an airplane.
26. run a marathon.
27. learn to surf.
28. have a baby girl.
29. drive a motorcycle.
30. be in a rodeo.
31. walk on a runway.
32. discover something no one else has. like a cave or piece of archaeology.
33. be phenomenal at yoga.
34. go fly fishing.
35. own a jeep again.
36. own a houseboat at lake powell.
37. start a charity for a 3rd world country cause.
38. adopt a child or two.
39. get an iphone.
40. learn to be content with NOW.
41. conquer celiac's disease.
42. marry my best friend.
43. get married in the salt lake temple.
44. become very knowledgeable in the gospel.
45. be a wellness and fitness guru.
46. learn to enjoy skiing.
47. visit where i used to live. where i love. winchester, virginia.
48. actually revisit all of back east. boston, baltimore, DC, all of it.
49. have a variety of colors of peacoats.
50. get an entire outfit from anthropologie.
51. become a fantastic cook.
52. pet a lion.
53. go to the jungle. like george of the jungle. and live there for a week.
54. get a black leather jacket and boots.
55. get a rose gold wedding ring. that no one else has.
56. build and paint a greenhouse/gardenshed. by myself.
57. open and own a dance studio.
58. run into someone i know while they're on their mission, and say hi.
59. have a beautiful, BIG porch/patio facing the west, in my backyard.
60. sleep in a circular-shaped bed.
61. go to niagra falls again and actually remember it.
62. go on a cruise.
63. go to a formal dinner party. with black dresses, pearls, tuxes and 3 coarse dinners.
64. have a baby girl. did i say that already??
65. have the most extravagant, beautiful baby nursery.
66. have a big, old library like in beauty and the beast. in my house.
67. have my own palm tree.
68. have a lakehouse.
69. ride a camel.
70. go to india.
71. invent something.
72. find my native american ancestor's names and information, and organize them into families. as well as templework, etc. find them.
73. search my ancestry as far back as humanly possible.
74. find a cure for headaches.
75. become really good at wood work. and be able to build things.
76. get into painting.
77. never get another cavity.
78. live outside of utah again.
79. live by the ocean for a while.
80. ride a scooter through rome.
81. be a successful and talented dress designer.
82. have a secret place.
83. have a sister.
84. meet oprah.
85. go to a texas longhorn's game.
86. get a cute laptop cover.
87. fly first class.
88. bring someone the gospel.
89. go bungee jumping. literally. and not 15-20 feet, the REAL deal.
90. ride in a hot air balloon.
91. get into rock climbing.
92. change someone's life.
93. never be over 120 pounds. never.
    
94. have a vacation home/condo in park city.
95. always have horses.
96. be in time square at christmas time.
97. learn to glass blow and make sweet vases and glass things.
98. own my own spa.
99. 
    
100. ----dinner time. to be continued. ---

mitch

to be satisfied..

the end of a dream. the end of my entire life growing up. the end of who i used to be. what used to be my identity that i once had to learn to let go. rarely do people get second chances at a love they had to give up one day. i did.
the quality-- not the best i have danced. the love of the whole thing.. and the act of doing it-- unsurpassed. when you truly love something, when you have truly given your heart and soul to it in the past, you have to learn to be satisfied with the simple fact that you danced your heart out at the end. and the results dont matter. and i think that was what i was supposed to learn.

come unto jesus.

Come unto Jesus, ye heavy laden,

Careworn and fainting, by sin oppressed.

He’ll safely guide you unto that haven

Where all who trust him may rest.

Come unto Jesus; He’ll ever heed you,

Though in the darkness you’ve gone astray.

His love will find you and gently lead you

From darkest night into day.

Come unto Jesus; He’ll surely hear you,

If you in meekness plead for his love.

Oh, know you not that angels are near you

From brightest mansions above?

Come unto Jesus from ev’ry nation,

From ev’ry land and isle of the sea.

Unto the high and lowly in station,

Ever he calls, “Come to me.”

some days.

some days are just.. those days.ever had one? it just kind of sucks. everything goes wrong. not even necessarily lots of extremely bad things, but lots of just not-so-great things. and it results in a kind of bad day.

sometimes you cant even remember everything that was bad during the day. but as the day progresses, the little things that happen just kind of build up on themselves. and you just feel crappy. You feel like the whole world is just spinning wrong. Something is in the water. It's just off.

that is today.

what turns it around? when you feel so down and depressed? What is it, exactly, that changes it?

i'll tell you. because i've learned today.

meet helen and ellen. twin 82 year old sisters in knoxville, tennessee.

they started 'the love kitchen.'

their very own homeless kitchen. they are the sweetest, most genuine, HAPPY little old ladies i've ever seen in my life. they exude and radiate love throughout their entire countenance. they run this unselfish little ktichen on faith. there are months when they dont even know how much longer funds will last to keep it open. they smile and say with a sweet southern accent::

"somehow it always does."

their sweet, simple, unpretentious inspiration is so wonderful to me.

• 1. There is only one Father and that is the Father in Heaven.
• 2. There is only one race, the human race.
• 3. Never take the last piece of bread. Someone may come by in need of it.

They are my inspiration today.

When you feel like you are in need, there is always, always someone who needs more. look for it. it'll change your day around.

matthew 5:7 ;;

blessed are the merciful, for they shall obtain mercy.

the cure to every single problem in this world::

l o v e.

Celiac- ac- ac...

ouch.

that could sum it up quite sufficiently.

celiac disease. gluten intolerance.

no bread for me!!

i was diagnosed with celiac disease summer '08. i had been complaining of my stomach just constantly hurting no matter what. it seemed like everything i ate hurt. why, you ask?? because gluten is in EVERYTHING!!!

so what do i eat? well, what does a bird eat? there you go.